I hope for a love like Johny Depp and Winona Ryder that never ended.
Constantly wondering how things would turn out if I had not sent that text that night. Would we still have been together?
Images run through my head. You would have been with me instead of her during prom. We’d be going for holidays together, you would’ve been the one holding me when I get high. You would’ve been my ultimate support.
You loved so much like no one would ever do and I took your pure heart carelessly and toss it so easily. You begged for me back not only once and I didn’t give you a chance. Why?? How stupid could I be?
After all these years, I knew you still had me in your mind. Not all the time but I’m there. I caught your signals but I pushed it away ‘cause it was not right. You have someone.
I hate knowing how she would feel if she knew what was on your mind ‘cause its the exact feeling when I see the both of you together. I’m selfish and stupid. I was stupid for letting you go. One Direction’s song hit me hard when I heard it, its written specially for people like me.
All I can say is I’m sorry. I cannot imagine how broken you must have felt then and I’m sorry, so sorry for putting you through all that. I don’t deserve you.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. SO FUCKING IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!